So I am guilty of being home sick.
It seems that my goal of finishing all of my homework for the rest of the semester was a success in helping me have plenty of time to relax, BUT having all that time made me no longer distracted, which has made me think of nothing else but home and how much I miss everything about it! So in a way, my brilliant plan back fired because it is never fun to dwell on things that you miss.
This morning I had a nice long talk with a good friend. Since moving to Provo she has definately been the most help in listening to me when I need it or just randomly calling at the most perfect times. While talking to her I went on and on about how much I miss home and blah blah blah. Her response to my whining was not what I expected it to be. Not the sympathetic "It will all be okay" answer I wanted but more of a "Suck it up and deal" attitude. Sure this may sound harsh, but it surpringly wasn't at all. It made me start to think.
I don't want to be this downer person! I chose to move far away from my family and friends. I chose to start this "new" life. I knew it would be hard for me and a completely different experience than I have ever been through. I knew what I was getting myself into.
When my friend told me that I needed to "suck it up" I realized that it is up to me to be happy. This experience can be a good or bad one and it all depends on me! I can honestly say that this experience thus far as been a lot of fun! I have enjoyed every thing about it, even the many nights of undecisiveness!
So how does this relate to Thanksgiving you may ask??? Well, I have so much to be thankful for in my life, and I really have no good reason to be a "downer" about certain things. Sure, I may not get to talk to some of my friends as much as I would like to, and I may be too far from home to where I can't go home for every holiday like a lot of my other friends, but at least I have friends who care about me. At least there are some people who actually care to call and talk, even if it isn't super often. At least I was able to come out here and start this new adventure with some of my family and friends! I'm thankful for even being able to come out here to this amazing place and meet the people I have met! I'm so thankful for the gospel that is in my life, because I know that without it I would not be able to be strong in situations like this. It is the gospel that lets me know I am never alone! Whether it be comfort from the spirit or through those people who touch our lives that are sent to us by the spirit.
My new goal is to look at everything in my life with as positive of an attitude as I can!!! I want to be one of those people who others can look at and say "She always seems happy."!